The Silence is Broken

Have you ever been through a time in your life where you felt like God put the phone receiver down or pressed the mute button? You feel like God has forgotten you or left you in this big world all on your own. That's been the way I've felt for so long. I felt like I was dialing up God, the phone would pickup but there was only silence on the other end of the line.

At first I would beg and plead for God to talk to me. Then I would get mad and ignore Him. "If Your not going to talk to me, then I'm not talking to You either." Finally I resigned myself to the silence. I decided even if He was silent, I would continue to speak. So my prayers were one sided for a long time or at least they felt that way. The strong connection and inspired wisdom I once enjoyed was lacking and I didn't know why.

I am still not sure why God chose to keep His distance from me. I'm just glad that He has broken the silence and I can feel Him again. Maybe He wasn't ever gone and I was just required to believe in Him inspite of my feelings. I don't know, but I am glad to hear Him and feel Him again.

Once again, I have nights where I can't sleep and I must write down the words He puts in my head. What a blessing to hear the Word of God and have it pentrate clear down to my soul. I love His Words. They are a treasure to me. They breathe through me and I can exhale. It's as if I have been holding my breath waiting for Him so I can finally let the air out of my lungs. And as the air escapes the truth blows through me and changes me.

He is the air I breathe, the food I eat and the water I drink. He makes my world worth the living and puts the excitement into my day. Without Him, my joy is gone and I am anxious for His return. Waking up to a new day is different when He's the one brushing the sleep from your eyes. It's a day that has hope. A day with a purpose. It's a day where you feel loved. That... is worth everything even a little time of silence.